so it begins

this summer has been quite the journey. i didn't go far or really even do much, but the trip within has taken me to many unfamiliar places. i truly feel i have been on a long and strange route, to now arrive back, where i three odd years ago began. walking down the streets, the colors seem to be same like in the august days i arrived here, it just has the same vibe in the air. like i have been away for some time, but nothing has changed - its still the same place i fell in love with. i'm still the same, but wiser.
i'm guessing the road i was on, was simply wrong road. it was filled with anxiety and stress, bunch of people, that just didn't feel exactly right. places i didn't belong or did not want to be part of.
its not easy to explain, because every journey has its meaning. i encountered the true essence of neediness, clingy; betrayal, neglect, ghosting. i saw what actual pathological liar looks like. i realized its quite okay to cut people out of your life, because they don't deserve to be in it. i think i have even seen pure evil, even though that sight i really try to put behind me and wish i'd never seen someone so cruel. and well being rotten inside has had various shades, that all have lead to point: stay the fuck away from me.
and its alright. there is nothing better really than to see through impure intentions.
this summer has opened my eyes about many, if not all the people in my life. i met countless faces from past. some relationship have stayed  as pure as they were, some still go down the immoral decadence. just somehow now, i see every single one of them crystal clear.
i don't know if this even made much sense. guess, all i meant with this was, i am truly grateful for the ones that are genuinely good. and i do wish all the best for the ones, who are trying to live their lives through deceiving, lying and backstabbing - its your route, not mine.
i feel i'm standing in the same point, where stood this pink dread-headed dude with suitcase and backpack, full of hope and starry-eyed. i am in fact living the life she wanted, exactly it.
that's how you know, everything is alright, better than alright. its amazing, you are always exactly, where you have to be and there is no need to worry. ever.