...täna öösel aasta aega tagasi, she went away. ma pole iial ilusamat talvehommikut näinud kui täna. it has to mean something.
ma arvasin, et mul on täna teatav meeleolu langus, aga vastupidi, ma olen rahulik ja väljapuhanud.ja öösel ta rääkis...sedasama, mida paar kuud tagasi. it has to mean something.
21.1.13
9.1.13
7.1.13
mhhh...mul oli plaanis kirjutada midagi ilusat. öelda, kuidas midagi pole muutunud ja köik hingab samas harmoonilises rütmis. aga. millegipärast olen ma samasuguses minust mitte olenevas veidras sitas nagu eelmine jaanuar. möneti küll on see vööras söda ja minust kaugel. kuid seda köike körvalt näha, toob eelmise aasta jaanuari ebameeldivalt lähedale. ja taaskord ei vihasta mind paratamatus vaid hoolimatus, egoism ja empaatiavöime puudumine. vöi jah last not the least, teadmatus.
paistab, et ma olen jälle ainus, kes kogu pilti näeb. ja seda mitte ainult paralleelide töttu, vaid ka sellepärast, et ma näen...might sound ridiculous, aga ma näen seda. seal sees. nagu ka siis....nagu ka nyyd.
ma ei saa aru enam, miks viimaste kuude jooxul see köik minusse üle kantakse. kas ...ma peaks siis oskama nöu anda? kas ma...oskan siis päriselt aidata? reaalsus on ju...et probleem ise ei kao, probleem on aastaid wana, wahel ka sajandeid, wahel on see geneetiline, wahel psühhosomaatiline. it has nothing to do with me or the reality. so why....i get dragged in.
ah mida ma räägin. ma pean endale sisendama, et ma ei saa midagi parata, see ei puutu minusse. täiskasvanud inimesed, kellel eeldatavasti on normintelligents, peavad suutma ise oma tegusid ratsionaliseerida. ise sealjuures pean ma meeles pidama, et inimesed ei ole töepoolest samal mental state'l nagu me, myse lf and i.
ma raiskasin nii palju oma energiat mentaalselt, et kurtidele körvadele selgitada, ja mis ma selle eest sain...tühjax pigistatud sidruni tunde. draakonimöjutused on weel väga tugevad. justice peab vöitma. kuid tunnen juba mao lähenemist, mis viitab tarkusele ja kavalusele. ja on aeg wait olla, awalikud söjad...ei ole enam aktuaalne. spartad lähevad nyyd kulisside taha ja ümbergi ei jöua pöörata, kui juba asjad on juhtunud ja pitser on peal.
see doku ilmselgelt walas ka eile öösel, kui nutsin nagu beebi, öli tulle.
mida me kakleme, kui midagi ei ole teha.
tsiteeridest inimest, kes mu elust vabatahtlikult lahkus: endaga peab tegelema, nii vaimselt kui füüsiliselt.
and that's exactly what i'm going to do ...and have been doing.
sest mis puudutab mind ja sind. siis...it's continuously eternally amazing
paistab, et ma olen jälle ainus, kes kogu pilti näeb. ja seda mitte ainult paralleelide töttu, vaid ka sellepärast, et ma näen...might sound ridiculous, aga ma näen seda. seal sees. nagu ka siis....nagu ka nyyd.
ma ei saa aru enam, miks viimaste kuude jooxul see köik minusse üle kantakse. kas ...ma peaks siis oskama nöu anda? kas ma...oskan siis päriselt aidata? reaalsus on ju...et probleem ise ei kao, probleem on aastaid wana, wahel ka sajandeid, wahel on see geneetiline, wahel psühhosomaatiline. it has nothing to do with me or the reality. so why....i get dragged in.
ah mida ma räägin. ma pean endale sisendama, et ma ei saa midagi parata, see ei puutu minusse. täiskasvanud inimesed, kellel eeldatavasti on normintelligents, peavad suutma ise oma tegusid ratsionaliseerida. ise sealjuures pean ma meeles pidama, et inimesed ei ole töepoolest samal mental state'l nagu me, myse lf and i.
ma raiskasin nii palju oma energiat mentaalselt, et kurtidele körvadele selgitada, ja mis ma selle eest sain...tühjax pigistatud sidruni tunde. draakonimöjutused on weel väga tugevad. justice peab vöitma. kuid tunnen juba mao lähenemist, mis viitab tarkusele ja kavalusele. ja on aeg wait olla, awalikud söjad...ei ole enam aktuaalne. spartad lähevad nyyd kulisside taha ja ümbergi ei jöua pöörata, kui juba asjad on juhtunud ja pitser on peal.
see doku ilmselgelt walas ka eile öösel, kui nutsin nagu beebi, öli tulle.
mida me kakleme, kui midagi ei ole teha.
tsiteeridest inimest, kes mu elust vabatahtlikult lahkus: endaga peab tegelema, nii vaimselt kui füüsiliselt.
and that's exactly what i'm going to do ...and have been doing.
sest mis puudutab mind ja sind. siis...it's continuously eternally amazing
6.12.12
Socioonika
..ja nagu sellest köigest weel vähe olex, me oleme ka duaalid....
Sensoorselt-loogiline introvert
ja
intuitiivselt-eetiline ekstravert
Meister näeb hästi ümbritsevas maailmas kehtivatest eetilistest etalonidest kõrvalekallete pisemaidki detaile ning raskelt talub seda disharmooniat. See kutsub temas diskomfordi tunnet, soovi parandada seisukorda, täiustada saavutatu või olemasolevat. Ja mitte ainult materiaalses maailmas vaid ka oma intellektuaalses ja vaimses arengus. Seepärast on Meister nõudlik nii enda ning sageli ka ümbritsevate suhtes. Talle ei meeldi kui miski on hallipärane, banaalne ning tavapärane, püüab täiustada ennast ja lähedasi, alates välimusest ja tervisest ning lõpetades vaimse arenguga. Väga teadmistehimuline, suure huvidediapasooniga, sageli on ebakindel endas kõrgendatud enesekriitika tõttu. Vajab kiidusõnu oma võimetele, oma jõupingutuste ergutamist.
Psühholoog on just see inimene kes märkab teistel talente, sisendab usku nende võimalustesse, meeleldi avaldab komplimente. Ta märkab isegi varjatuid võimeid ning meeleldi neid arendab. See imponeerib Meistrile väga. Sellise partneriga ta ei pea igatsema. Psühholoog on kasulik talle veel selle poolest, et kergelt leiab väljapääsu rasketest situatsioonidest, mis oleksid võinud paisata Meistrit pikemaks ajaks depressiooni. Ning Meister, tänuavalduseks selle eest, ilmutab hoolt selle inimese hingelise ja välise komfordist eest kes lahendab tema sisemisi probleeme.
Psühholoog tunneb suurt vajadust hoolitseva partneri järele ning leiab rahustust oma emotsionaalsele mässavale loomusele sõnades ning toimingutes püsiva, kindla ja ustava sõbra vaikses sadamas. Meister loob mugavust ning komfordi elus halvasti kohanevale Psühholoogile, võimaldades tal mõelda vaimsetest ning intellektuaalsetest väärtustest, genereerida uusi ideid, mis toovad uudsust nende ühisesse tegevusse.
Olmeprobleeme võtab Meister peamiselt enda kanda, arvates, et see tuleb tal paremini välja. Psühholoog on algatusvõimeline suhetes, oskab koondada enda ümber inimesi, osutub seltskonnahingeks. Ta on usaldusväärne, annab meeleldi nõu isiklike probleemide lahendamiseks. Ta on peen psühholoog kes hästi mõistab inimeste varjatuid vajadusi. Väljendab emotsionaalselt oma suhtumist inimestesse; tema siirus, soojus ning otsekohesus sunnib ümbritsevaid andestama talle liigset sirgjoonelisust ning äkilisust. Ta parandab Meistri eetilisi möödalaskmisi ning sageli ka enda omi, kuna ei kanna pikka viha ja väga armastab inimesi. Tema usaldavus muudab umbuskliku Meistri araks ning emotsionaalsus pehmendab külmemat ja vaoshoitumat partnerit.
Meister on üsna kinnine ja ei armasta demonstreerida oma tundeid. Ta oskab luua distantsi suhtlemises, tundub olema suureline ja mittekontaktne. Kuid hinges on ta tänulik inimesele, kes haarab initsiatiivi eetilistes küsimustes enda kanda. Psühholoogi usaldavus imponeerib talle, aga muutumatu optimism ning tuleviku, erinevate algatuste perspektiivide, mistahes situatsioonides väljumisteede nägemine, sisendavad Meistris püsivat optimismi tuleviku suhtes, vähendavad tema skeptitsismi ning umbusku uue, vähe uuritud ning praktikas kontrollimata suhtes. Lisaks, Meister on vahetevahel väga kahtlustav, suurendab võimalike ning ei näe reaalseid ohte. Seevastu Psühholoog, kes elab rohkem tulevikus kui olevikus, arvestab kõik ette ning õigeaegselt kutsub ettevaatlikkusele ning samas rahustab partnerit kui on tegemist valehäirega.
Meister on väga tehnoloogiline ja praktiline. Oskab töötada kiiresti ning kooskõlastatult. Mõtleb läbi kõik tööetapid ette, varudes eelnevalt tööks vajalikku. Kannatlik töö üksikasjade lihvimisel, oskab eristada peamist, mis on Psühholoogile väga raske. Psühholoogi töövõime saab olla suur vaid kriitilistes situatsioonides aga rutiinne ning nokitsev töö alandab tema elutoonust, olles igavuse allikaks selle rahutu loomingulise isiksuse jaoks. Psühholoog võtab meeleldi enda peale juhitava ning abistaja rolli mis rahustab Meistri liidri loomust, kellele ei meeldi kui talle surutakse peale teisi töövõtteid kui ta ise õigeks peab. Ta on häälestatud reaalsele kasule ning kasumile, erinevalt altruistlikust Psühholoogist, ning see aitab kaasa diaadi materiaalse heaolu kasvule.
Psühholoog vajab partnerit, kes on piisavalt leebe tema nõrkuste suhtes: lohakusele töös, mitteaustus reeglite, reglementide ning hierarhia, motiveerimata agressiivsuse puhangute suhtes. Meister suhtub leebelt nende puudujääkidesse, vahetevahel nad isegi lõbustavad teda. Talle imponeerib Psühholoogi sõltumatu iseloom mis ei kipu kallale ta enda sõltumatusele. Selle duaalse paari iseloomulikeks joonteks on sõltumatus teineteisest ning ümbritsevatest, suhete harmoonia, rahutu loominguline ning enesearendamise vaim.
Meister näeb hästi ümbritsevas maailmas kehtivatest eetilistest etalonidest kõrvalekallete pisemaidki detaile ning raskelt talub seda disharmooniat. See kutsub temas diskomfordi tunnet, soovi parandada seisukorda, täiustada saavutatu või olemasolevat. Ja mitte ainult materiaalses maailmas vaid ka oma intellektuaalses ja vaimses arengus. Seepärast on Meister nõudlik nii enda ning sageli ka ümbritsevate suhtes. Talle ei meeldi kui miski on hallipärane, banaalne ning tavapärane, püüab täiustada ennast ja lähedasi, alates välimusest ja tervisest ning lõpetades vaimse arenguga. Väga teadmistehimuline, suure huvidediapasooniga, sageli on ebakindel endas kõrgendatud enesekriitika tõttu. Vajab kiidusõnu oma võimetele, oma jõupingutuste ergutamist.
Psühholoog on just see inimene kes märkab teistel talente, sisendab usku nende võimalustesse, meeleldi avaldab komplimente. Ta märkab isegi varjatuid võimeid ning meeleldi neid arendab. See imponeerib Meistrile väga. Sellise partneriga ta ei pea igatsema. Psühholoog on kasulik talle veel selle poolest, et kergelt leiab väljapääsu rasketest situatsioonidest, mis oleksid võinud paisata Meistrit pikemaks ajaks depressiooni. Ning Meister, tänuavalduseks selle eest, ilmutab hoolt selle inimese hingelise ja välise komfordist eest kes lahendab tema sisemisi probleeme.
Psühholoog tunneb suurt vajadust hoolitseva partneri järele ning leiab rahustust oma emotsionaalsele mässavale loomusele sõnades ning toimingutes püsiva, kindla ja ustava sõbra vaikses sadamas. Meister loob mugavust ning komfordi elus halvasti kohanevale Psühholoogile, võimaldades tal mõelda vaimsetest ning intellektuaalsetest väärtustest, genereerida uusi ideid, mis toovad uudsust nende ühisesse tegevusse.
Olmeprobleeme võtab Meister peamiselt enda kanda, arvates, et see tuleb tal paremini välja. Psühholoog on algatusvõimeline suhetes, oskab koondada enda ümber inimesi, osutub seltskonnahingeks. Ta on usaldusväärne, annab meeleldi nõu isiklike probleemide lahendamiseks. Ta on peen psühholoog kes hästi mõistab inimeste varjatuid vajadusi. Väljendab emotsionaalselt oma suhtumist inimestesse; tema siirus, soojus ning otsekohesus sunnib ümbritsevaid andestama talle liigset sirgjoonelisust ning äkilisust. Ta parandab Meistri eetilisi möödalaskmisi ning sageli ka enda omi, kuna ei kanna pikka viha ja väga armastab inimesi. Tema usaldavus muudab umbuskliku Meistri araks ning emotsionaalsus pehmendab külmemat ja vaoshoitumat partnerit.
Meister on üsna kinnine ja ei armasta demonstreerida oma tundeid. Ta oskab luua distantsi suhtlemises, tundub olema suureline ja mittekontaktne. Kuid hinges on ta tänulik inimesele, kes haarab initsiatiivi eetilistes küsimustes enda kanda. Psühholoogi usaldavus imponeerib talle, aga muutumatu optimism ning tuleviku, erinevate algatuste perspektiivide, mistahes situatsioonides väljumisteede nägemine, sisendavad Meistris püsivat optimismi tuleviku suhtes, vähendavad tema skeptitsismi ning umbusku uue, vähe uuritud ning praktikas kontrollimata suhtes. Lisaks, Meister on vahetevahel väga kahtlustav, suurendab võimalike ning ei näe reaalseid ohte. Seevastu Psühholoog, kes elab rohkem tulevikus kui olevikus, arvestab kõik ette ning õigeaegselt kutsub ettevaatlikkusele ning samas rahustab partnerit kui on tegemist valehäirega.
Meister on väga tehnoloogiline ja praktiline. Oskab töötada kiiresti ning kooskõlastatult. Mõtleb läbi kõik tööetapid ette, varudes eelnevalt tööks vajalikku. Kannatlik töö üksikasjade lihvimisel, oskab eristada peamist, mis on Psühholoogile väga raske. Psühholoogi töövõime saab olla suur vaid kriitilistes situatsioonides aga rutiinne ning nokitsev töö alandab tema elutoonust, olles igavuse allikaks selle rahutu loomingulise isiksuse jaoks. Psühholoog võtab meeleldi enda peale juhitava ning abistaja rolli mis rahustab Meistri liidri loomust, kellele ei meeldi kui talle surutakse peale teisi töövõtteid kui ta ise õigeks peab. Ta on häälestatud reaalsele kasule ning kasumile, erinevalt altruistlikust Psühholoogist, ning see aitab kaasa diaadi materiaalse heaolu kasvule.
Psühholoog vajab partnerit, kes on piisavalt leebe tema nõrkuste suhtes: lohakusele töös, mitteaustus reeglite, reglementide ning hierarhia, motiveerimata agressiivsuse puhangute suhtes. Meister suhtub leebelt nende puudujääkidesse, vahetevahel nad isegi lõbustavad teda. Talle imponeerib Psühholoogi sõltumatu iseloom mis ei kipu kallale ta enda sõltumatusele. Selle duaalse paari iseloomulikeks joonteks on sõltumatus teineteisest ning ümbritsevatest, suhete harmoonia, rahutu loominguline ning enesearendamise vaim.
3.12.12
get free
it's just so odd, when u become mentally utterly retarded and even shy and backwards about the thing u wanted to shout all about to the world... that you have absolutely nothing to say to the outside world, that u have lost all the strings attached to everything else. those magnificent moments, when u become.. the only thing that matters. everything u have ever confronted and felt ..seems so unreal and useless, total waste of time and space. the answers, u needed, the questions, u thought, u wanted to ask..what were they really about, every moment u thought, u lived, were irrelevant compared to now and ...forever. i'm saying you, though i meant me. because it is all about me ...and you. and the end of the world or the day, when the whole world went away. there is absolutely nothing else out there, there never was. all those seconds without you, the minutes, the months...the years and beyond..they all make sense. all the things ever said or done or dreamt or dimensions never reached, are in divine infinity...how can one ever verbalize anything, if mind is just unable to reach this level of understanding, feeling...the ultimate level of high, which is...reality. every song, listened to hundreds and thousands of times suddenly just comes together. every word, every beat...flows through you..all those movies, all those books, poems, theories...are one. one big whole. everything i ever...wanted. everything i ever questioned or refused to believe in. everything anyone could possibly wish. we have it in front of us. and it's so unreal, that i'm willing to let go everything i was ever all about. i'm ready to..not have ...anything at all. now i know, how stupid i was, now i know, how wrong i was...til this very moment. actually every single word i ever wrote...every single idea i had during the years i have been writing here...all of it. it's a bunch of crap. this has nothing to do, what i know now, what i have become, whom i've met in my real mirror. seriously why to bother even...trying to concentrate on anything. everything is lana, she said it all. it is...illuminati. it is the end. and we are born to die. and ....even worse for everybody else. it's the exact opposite. again we met. from the brief second our eyes met across the hall, the centuries again, were erased. and it began again. and it is odd to know. and i'm saying odd, because weird or awkward would be...negative. and difference between knowing something then, knowing something now...is, this time, i am really naked and empty and full and....i have nothing left of myself, the one that i knew of.. i was just a kid, sorry kids.
15.11.12
14.11.12
Lesbian
Lesbians are a divine race of extra-dimensional alpha-females whose very existence is one chiefly devoted to the fulfillment of all manner of pleasures and whims. Blessed with supreme beauty, intelligence and grace, their only weakness would appear to be their hellish lust and need for sexual gratification. Perfectly formed, their skin is without blemish, their eyes always shine with a sublime incandescence, and they are possessed of a charm so intense it can melt a man's soul.
Lesbians swim inside rainbows, wear stars around their necks, and, most importantly, possess no hair on their bodies save their heads. It is a well known fact that they can, on impulse, secret honey. They only drink nectar, only eat ambrosia, and never sweat, cry, burp, excrete, cough or suffer from any other widely disgustingly human traits.
Tragically, Lesbians are only attracted to other Lesbians, and thus their lotus musk, their angelic aura, their luscious charms, and their honey, can never be experienced by mere mortals – they are the eternal embodiment of the sacred and the forbidden.
Please note that the Lesbians referred to above are the REAL Lesbians. Anyone who claims to be a Lesbian and has any physical or mental flaws whatsoever, or who cannot breathe moonbeams and secrete honey on demand is an imposter. The author of this post has nothing against homosexuals, but True Lesbians are something else. -What makes honey, but is not a bee?
-A Lesbian.
When James saw the tip of the Lesbian's toe his soul turned to butter and his eyes burned for hours afterwards. Unless you want to be consumed within the molten fury of your own lust, James advises you to stay away from Lesbians.
Lesbians are a divine race of extra-dimensional alpha-females whose very existence is one chiefly devoted to the fulfillment of all manner of pleasures and whims. Blessed with supreme beauty, intelligence and grace, their only weakness would appear to be their hellish lust and need for sexual gratification. Perfectly formed, their skin is without blemish, their eyes always shine with a sublime incandescence, and they are possessed of a charm so intense it can melt a man's soul.
Lesbians swim inside rainbows, wear stars around their necks, and, most importantly, possess no hair on their bodies save their heads. It is a well known fact that they can, on impulse, secret honey. They only drink nectar, only eat ambrosia, and never sweat, cry, burp, excrete, cough or suffer from any other widely disgustingly human traits.
Tragically, Lesbians are only attracted to other Lesbians, and thus their lotus musk, their angelic aura, their luscious charms, and their honey, can never be experienced by mere mortals – they are the eternal embodiment of the sacred and the forbidden.
Please note that the Lesbians referred to above are the REAL Lesbians. Anyone who claims to be a Lesbian and has any physical or mental flaws whatsoever, or who cannot breathe moonbeams and secrete honey on demand is an imposter. The author of this post has nothing against homosexuals, but True Lesbians are something else. -What makes honey, but is not a bee?
-A Lesbian.
When James saw the tip of the Lesbian's toe his soul turned to butter and his eyes burned for hours afterwards. Unless you want to be consumed within the molten fury of your own lust, James advises you to stay away from Lesbians.
13.11.12
XDDD
no wahi-wahi. arvad siin pahaaimamatult, et oled armunud ja mis siis välja tuleb...
me olem haiged inimesed hoopis. me peame ravile minema.
raja, baby, here i cum (!)
Pick's disease is a relatively rare form of dementia that causes a slow shrinking of brain cells due to excess protein build-up. Patients with Pick’s initially exhibit marked personality and behavioral changes, and then a decline in the ability to speak coherently.
While up to seven million Americans may be afflicted with dementia, Pick's disease accounts for just five percent of all progressive dementias. Because of the manner in which symptoms first appear, it is frequently misdiagnosed in the early stages as depression, mental illness, or Alzheimer's disease—but Pick’s has its own set of characteristics that set it apart. And although there is no cure, learning about the unique symptoms can help you more quickly identify and manage the disease What is Pick's disease?
According to Arnold Pick, who first described the disease in 1892, Pick's disease causes an irreversible decline in a person's functioning over a period of years. Although it is commonly confused with the much more prevalent Alzheimer's disease, Pick's disease is a rare disorder that causes the frontal and temporal lobes of the brain, which control speech and personality, to slowly atrophy. It is therefore classified as a frontotemporal dementia, or FTD.
Causes of Pick's disease
Like Huntington's disease and Lewy Body disease, Pick's disease is the result of a build-up of protein in the affected areas of the brain. The accumulation of abnormal brain cells, known as Pick's bodies, eventually leads to changes in character, socially inappropriate behavior, and poor decision making, progressing to a severe impairment in intellect, memory and speech.
Pick's disease usually strikes adults between the ages of 40 and 60, and is slightly more common in women than in men. Unfortunately, the cause for Pick's disease is unknown. A few studies suggest that Pick's disease may have a genetic component, but most family members are unaffected. Other risk factors are unknown.
Signs and symptoms of Pick's disease
In contrast to Alzheimer’s disease, where memory loss is the predominate early sign, the first symptoms of Pick’s disease usually involve personality changes or a decline in basic functioning.
While the progression of symptoms in Pick's disease is fortunately slow, symptoms do worsen over time. The following symptoms are typical of patients with Pick's disease. More severe symptoms appear in later stages of the illness.
Behavioral signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Impulsivity and poor judgment
Extreme restlessness (early stages)
Overeating or drinking to excess (when this was not previously a problem)
Lack of attention to personal hygiene
Sexual exhibitionism or promiscuity
Withdrawal or decreased interest in activities of daily living
Decline in function at work and home
Repetitive or obsessive behavior
Emotional signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Abrupt mood changes
Lack of warmth, concern, or empathy
Apathy
Rudeness, impatience, or aggression
Easily distracted; poor attention span
Unaware of the changes in behavior
Language signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Loss of vocabulary
Trouble finding the right word
Difficulty speaking or understanding speech
Repeating words others say
Weak, uncoordinated speech sounds
Decrease in ability to read or write
Complete loss of speech
Physical signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Increased muscle rigidity or stiffness
Difficulty moving about
Lack of coordination
General weakness
Memory loss
Urinary incontinence
source: http://www.helpguide.org/elder/picks_disease.htm
minge persse XDDDDDDDD
Pick's disease is a relatively rare form of dementia that causes a slow shrinking of brain cells due to excess protein build-up. Patients with Pick’s initially exhibit marked personality and behavioral changes, and then a decline in the ability to speak coherently.
While up to seven million Americans may be afflicted with dementia, Pick's disease accounts for just five percent of all progressive dementias. Because of the manner in which symptoms first appear, it is frequently misdiagnosed in the early stages as depression, mental illness, or Alzheimer's disease—but Pick’s has its own set of characteristics that set it apart. And although there is no cure, learning about the unique symptoms can help you more quickly identify and manage the disease What is Pick's disease?
According to Arnold Pick, who first described the disease in 1892, Pick's disease causes an irreversible decline in a person's functioning over a period of years. Although it is commonly confused with the much more prevalent Alzheimer's disease, Pick's disease is a rare disorder that causes the frontal and temporal lobes of the brain, which control speech and personality, to slowly atrophy. It is therefore classified as a frontotemporal dementia, or FTD.
Causes of Pick's disease
Like Huntington's disease and Lewy Body disease, Pick's disease is the result of a build-up of protein in the affected areas of the brain. The accumulation of abnormal brain cells, known as Pick's bodies, eventually leads to changes in character, socially inappropriate behavior, and poor decision making, progressing to a severe impairment in intellect, memory and speech.
Pick's disease usually strikes adults between the ages of 40 and 60, and is slightly more common in women than in men. Unfortunately, the cause for Pick's disease is unknown. A few studies suggest that Pick's disease may have a genetic component, but most family members are unaffected. Other risk factors are unknown.
Signs and symptoms of Pick's disease
In contrast to Alzheimer’s disease, where memory loss is the predominate early sign, the first symptoms of Pick’s disease usually involve personality changes or a decline in basic functioning.
While the progression of symptoms in Pick's disease is fortunately slow, symptoms do worsen over time. The following symptoms are typical of patients with Pick's disease. More severe symptoms appear in later stages of the illness.
Behavioral signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Impulsivity and poor judgment
Extreme restlessness (early stages)
Overeating or drinking to excess (when this was not previously a problem)
Lack of attention to personal hygiene
Sexual exhibitionism or promiscuity
Withdrawal or decreased interest in activities of daily living
Decline in function at work and home
Repetitive or obsessive behavior
Emotional signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Abrupt mood changes
Lack of warmth, concern, or empathy
Apathy
Rudeness, impatience, or aggression
Easily distracted; poor attention span
Unaware of the changes in behavior
Language signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Loss of vocabulary
Trouble finding the right word
Difficulty speaking or understanding speech
Repeating words others say
Weak, uncoordinated speech sounds
Decrease in ability to read or write
Complete loss of speech
Physical signs and symptoms of Pick’s disease
Increased muscle rigidity or stiffness
Difficulty moving about
Lack of coordination
General weakness
Memory loss
Urinary incontinence
source: http://www.helpguide.org/elder/picks_disease.htm
minge persse XDDDDDDDD
4.11.12
spring is in november
i'm thrilled and amazed, utterly fascinated...and i can't believe, what i believe. if this is the end, another day, when the world went away, then i don't care...and i don't cry. i laugh and. the zero is upsidedown, the hanged man, the joker. is right now.
29.10.12
beautiful collision
howdy. esimene reaalne waba päew yle pika aja ja seda väga mitmes möttes. kuidagi nostalgiline on olla. just siin, kus ma olen.
esimene lumi tuli maha 25 oktoober ja sisuliselt maha ta jäigi. selles on möödunud neli päewa ja neli kilo. see röve allergia mu kätelt hakkab lahkuma, seega ka stress on kadunud. igatahes väga hea pinnas tevislikule anoreksiale ja muutustele elus. kuigi just praegusel hetkel, ma ei wajagi mingit muutust, köik on paigas ja harmoonias. nagu ka eelmises postituses näha, tulid ka kaardid minu juurde tagasi ja i should look more into it.
parim asi tänase juures oli hommikune greibi-mee-sidruni jook. oi, kui hästi keha mäletas, mida tähendab üks greip. it was almost orgasmic. ja päew ju alles algas....
esimest korda, eile siis, tegin ma asju öigesti. ilma valedeta ja ilma hirmuta. see puhastas mu mürgitatud aju kapitaalselt... paremuse poole.
ma lihtsalt tean...et nüüd on midagi teisiti...see viha, pettumus ja ängistus on möödas. ma wabanesin sellest köige ootamatul viisil, mis vöiks pähe karata. see on sürreaalne, fascinating and thrilling and mindblowing...ja ilus. ja kui on tähetedesse kirjutatud, peab vist tuhka pähe raputama. alexis zorbas meenub. huvitav.panen tömbama (kui hea on taaskord asju tömmata, kui tuju tuleb...ei mingit gemat ega actat ^^)
mmm...esimene toit nelja päewa jooxul, neli vutimuna ja kaks porgandit :D see paneb maitseid hindama. fantastiline.
...wanad söbrad ilmnuvad igalt poolt välja ja küsivad, kuidas läheb. ma ei hakka neile valetama, et mul läheb...kuradi hästi. küll nemad juba teavad :D
ega ma tömbangi praegu otsa kokku ja vaatan, mis ülejäänud päewal pakkuda on ^^
28.10.12
mount fucking everest.
tundub, et on aeg kaarte panna.
lähimineviku negatiivsed aspektid töid mind fataalsele tulemusele. where/when i least expected it. aju on önnex välja lülitunud ja köik ymbrus harmoonias.
so here goes nothing. wana hea mina-sina-olevik-tulevik ladumine.
ärtu kolm haaa no fck me. ärtu kolm viitab samasooliste söprade selckonna nautimisele. blablabla...löbu ja nauding. charmant, fun, sörbalik, head kavatsused. long story short, lucky card, things that belong together..just belong together.
now a different story. ärtu soldat see on see hurmur kaart. tegelane, kes teeb sada trikki, et saavutada oma eesmärk. one way or another...with the twitch of fascination. ja kui see on käes, siis on tsauki.
wait what...kas ma ajasin nad wahetusse. vöi mis weel hullem :D maybe it's all the same. sama asja kaks aspekti. olgu.
carry on.
blurry. mida see siin teeb. ruutu kaks pööratud
sisuliselt symobliseerib see asjade ummikusse jooxmist. "vöta vöi jäta"; "köik vöi mitte midagi". ja main thing about it, on reisikaaart ikkagi. annab seostada ehk. must look into it. with an extra card - poti yhexa pööratud šokk, murranguline pööre, lahkukolimine, lahutus. okei-okei. oluline aspekt selle kaardi juures on...see paneb su väärtushinnangud proovile ja pole välistatud, et neid peab muutma. poti yhexa vöib su elu igaveseks muuta. hmmm...millegipärast i do have this feeling.
edasi. ärtu kuus kaart mis kannab lihtsalt nime igavene. ja igavesest ajast igavesti, kuni surm meid lahutab. i did get this word previously already.
igatahes. symboliseerib asju, mis jätkub muutumatuna terve igaviku. ühel vöi teisel viisil kestab see elu löpuni.
mitte et ärtu kuus wajax lisakaarte, but i'm intrigued. so lets...
hmmm... ruutu kahexa elamiskunst, tasakaal, vördsus. huvitav nüanss yldiselt. see kaart on, hmm...nagu kirss tordil v nii. pmst aega täidavad juba köik muu, aga see on nagu täiendus niigi täisväärtuslikult elule. tänu lihtsusele, möistuslikkusele ja stabiilsusele on vastastikune möju loov ja hingeline. no get the picture. "...rikastab su elu köikvöimalike aspektidega"
selle peale...et asjale weelgirohkem walgust anda. kerge minevik-olevik-tulevik.
1. history. ruutu yhexa pööratud liiga körged ootused ja liiga madalad ambitsioonid. "kui soovite kokku jääda, pead latti madamale laskma. su partneril pole wajaliku abieluönne loomiseks wajalikke eeldusi. loomulikult vöite läbikäimist jätkata, kuid kirgastumiseni teie liit ei küündi.
issand kuidas ma armastan, kui keegi kasutab söna kirgastumine. rusikas kuradi silmaauku. ...kui hästi nad teavad XD
wahemärkusena...minu latt ei käi madalamale.
2. olevik. ja taaskord. ärtu kolm löbu ja nauding. oioioi, mis jutt XD
tsiteerin... "...siis moodustate varsti kaheliikmelise yhiskonna. sel paaril on kahekesi märksa löbusam kui kellegi teisega. nad on südamlikud, mänguhimulised ja päikeselised hinged on teineteisele loodud"
3. lähitulevik. what the fuck. noormehed. mix te kordute. XD ruutu kaks pööratud ma ei viici seda pointi kordama hakata. aga tundub, et siin mingit kohta v ajahetke ei taha/ei oska kaardid konkreetselt öiges suunas rääkida. rohkem nagu ymbruses kompamine.
lisakaart...ärtu kymme ärtu kymme on künnis märksa suuremat emotsionaalset rahuldust pakkuvasse keskonda. ärtu kymme koosneb kolmest etapist. a) otsus wanast suhtest eemalduda b) eemaldumisega kaasnev ängistus ja sellest tervenemine c) otsus avada uus uks ja kohtuda uute inimestega.
otseassendid kaart tähistab a-d ja c-d, pööratud b-d. kümme ennustab alati edasiliikumist ja parema pelgupaiga otsinguid.
pikem perspektiiv ....mingid ebaloogilised kaardid. tömman lisa.
ärtu kaheksa paneb mainima, et kui yx lisakaart välja arvata, siis on see straight red flush. mainly ärtu.
djah...tähendab. ma ei hakka seda isegi mitte kirjutama. igayx kes teab midagi symbolismist, siis kaheksa ja ärtu pretty much sums it up ...
i want to lick your brainz.
funny thing ikkagi. asjad, mis pealtnäha on lihtsad, on keerulisemad, kui arvatagi oskad. ja asjad, mida pidasid praktiliselt vöimatux, on....nii meeldivalt lihtsad.
20.10.12
lana
i've never been as disgusted.
u devoted ur life and soul and faith into it. and...it really hasn't even been a year...since the most important person in my life died.
died.
in a horrible way.
and she replies....MIS SEE TÄHENDAB?!
tead mis see tähendab. see tähendab, et sa oled kõige önnetum ja tähtsusetum inimene maamunal. sellist tyhjust ei saa täita ka sitaga
könts.
no one has ever been as shit to....to anyone. to humanity. to love.
5.10.12
.bb
guess i should...say what has happened, but i realized, that there's no need for that. i'll just summarize my random thoughts. i have had the fastest ride and slowest conclusions. one took 27 hours, the other one six years of my life. matching the pieces of the puzzle with a friend of mine, got me somewhere i haven't been before with this subject. i always somehow assumed it was more about me, not the other way around. i thought i was howling to the moon and walking in circles...that it was my fault somehow... comes out, that is quite a bunch of bullshit. i wasn't scared, i was there all the time. i'm not the one with sleeve full of games.
there's something about near death experiences, that make you just love again. at first i was scared shitless, when i actually understood, that the end of me might be on the roads of lithuania. i remember so clearly the thought in my head, that a chick in bmw is the best thing that could happen 4 am in the middle on nowhere. but it ended up being the longest 300 kilometers in my life. having mk ultra telepathy four hours straight, every second ready to grab the wheel myself, leaded me to extreme exhaustion.
and i still have it, but my mind is clear. i won't push shit that doesn't need to pushed. when i said i don't believe these things anymore, she said, she had lost faith. in a way it's funny. she seriously was sure, if a thing like this is out there, there is still hope for all of us. and guess what...i don't think there is. the supernatural coincidences are hard to deny, but does it really mean anything. right now and right here it doesn't change anything. i don't feel sad or lonely..i'm quite comfortable of knowing what's going to happen tomorrow. i enjoy the silence. the need for adrenaline and thrill, even they are quiet. why not, i was really sick of the noises already...
1.10.12
on the road again :D
I've been out on that open road
You can be my full time, daddy
White and gold
Singing blues has been getting old
You can be my full time, baby
Hot or cold
Don't break me down
I've been travelin' too long
I've been trying too hard
With one pretty song
I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast
I am alone in the night
Been tryin' hard not to get into trouble, but I
I've got a war in my mind
So, I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride
Dying young and I'm playing hard
That's the way my father made his life an art
Drink all day and we talk 'til dark
That's the way the road doves do it, ride 'til dark.
Don't leave me now
Don't say good bye
Don't turn around
Leave me high and dry
I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast
I am alone in the night
Been tryin' hard not to get in trouble, but I
I've got a war in my mind
I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride
I'm tired of feeling like I'm fucking crazy
I'm tired of driving 'till I see stars in my eyes
I look up to hear myself saying,
Baby, too much I strive, I just ride
I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast
I am alone in the night
Been tryin' hard not to get in trouble, but I
I've got a war in my mind
I just ride
Just ride, I just ride, I just ride
28.9.12
salude
...i think it's time to say, that momma i'm coming home. too bad you're not even near, where i need to be. too bad you can't ever tell me that, what i'm doing, is wrong (or right). too bad i can't even feel you...like other people say, they feel the ones near, that passed away. my radar is empty and dead....even like you were never here. even the fading memories of you seem so distant, that i just don't want to cope with, cause in the end it was all pain. so
it's rainy and cloudy and cold and alone outside. i feel ...nothing at all. not even the lonelyness, eventho, the person i love/loved, is..right behind me.
eventho the person who gets me til the end is few kilometers away, i want to escape them...and everything. how can you, just leave so far, that you leave no trace behind....it destroys and corrupts me...i don't want to sleep, but i sleep forever, i feel, but i block the true ones and go with the ones full of hate. how do i even go on like this. i had no idea, what it really meant. i still don't know, what anything means...guess there was this only one, who always stayed on my side, because she knew, what i was all about, but now seems, like even she has gone, where you have gone...in the eternal silence. why would you not sing in the trees and in the clouds, why would you not appear in the colors of the flowers. why aren't you doing, what you're supposed to do...or if that is a lie, what can i believe. from the dead...and alive ones. if you both left me the same way...trying to breathe, trying to catch the significent moments of seconds...giving me nothing but myself and emptyness. we're you lying, was i lying...all the time.
why would i ever...mention. anything. that is left pure. like loving a mother. like having a soulmate 'til the rest of your journeys, 'til eternity, dreams....reality, truth is dreams................i don't want to talk anymore
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